So, after Aric got home all he could talk about was the concert.
Now I really want to go to one...
And hopefully I wont choose another Lifehouse.
Let's see....I can't remember what I did yesterday...I was supposed to work with Ed, and then I was supposed to work with Sandi...and neither one actually pulled through.
There's a VC meeting tonight. I'll be happy with it if Andrew doesn't show up...Mmm...Tastee Freeze.
I was wanting to update last night. Like really bad for some reason, but then I forgot about it and crashed.

It's my grandmother's birthday today. No one will tell me how old she is. ::shrugs:: We've got a red velvet cake in the oven. Mmmm...yummy, hehe.

Guess I will go.

Crys~

Today was really weird.
I woke up at like, 8:00 without Aric having to come in and kick me out of bed.
It's been a long time sense I could wake up before 10:00 without the aid of the alarm clock.
So, I took Aric to work, came back, and started cleaning my room 'cuz it really needed it.
I was expecting to come off the high with a vengeance but I didn't
Woo! I actually had energy and felt really good. I'm just now starting to get tired.
Got a lot done today. I feel all good about myself now.

I'm supposed to work with Ed again tomorrow. Hopefully I'll still be feeling good and it'll work out.
I'm supposed to set up some more what'cha call 'ems and then Ed is gonna have me build a computer.
I'm having flash backs to when I fried Aric's N64.
Shouldn't be hard though. From what I've seen and heard you can't really screw up in that area.

I found a $100 check in my room today...I had forgotten to cash it...I was gonna shoot myself. I can't cash it now ::heaves sigh:: Stupid me.
What I could have done with a $100...Mmm...money.
I think I'm gonna get paid for baby-sitting this weekend...
Heh, Bruce was telling me that I could watch them over at his house. I was ok with that. Then he said he was expecting me to take them to church....Yeah right. I really don't want to feel all....adultish in their church, and that's how I would have to act if I took the kids by myself.... It's all weird. The people are nice but...yeah. The times I've been there they really lay on the recruiting personality. And from what I've seen of the preacher...I'd have to start throwing stuff at him... So yeah
I talked him out of it.
I have a feeling he's gonna want me to drop them off with someone...who will take them to church...I dunno.

Hm, my mind is going off in several different directions right now. Probably not a good time to update.


Mmmm...food....Yummy.

Sleepyness....
Hasn't been a very eventful weekend I guess. Or at least not physically...mentally on the other hand.
My dad rented the Count Of Monte Cristo...Hehe, love that movie.
Thought some more on what I wanna do for Halloween. I dunno.
I think I might just skip it. Might be the best idea all around.
Too much stuff....clouding everything. And as I've been told from many people, I shouldn't bring my problems with me.

My dad brought up the subject of me staying on the gaurd...
He was being real supportive...but I still felt like crap afterwards...Still do.
I can't contribute shit anymore in any aspect of my life.
I'm continuously running into and pounding my head into a wall. It starts to hurt after a while.

I want to get my uncle's truck so bad...I feel like it might help things...and yet, it'll add yet another problem...Again I dunno.

I'm going to be 18 next year...and I just feel like crawling under a rock and hiding...

Gonna go to bed now.

Not much happened today.
Got up early and took Aric to work about 7:30.
Got to take A.J. with us, that was cool.
Came home, played with A.J.
He's as bad as Aric as far as game systems. Got the "Kill 'em All Dance" down pat.
Dad had a talk with Dawn...Smoothed everything over. A lot of what mom and grandma were telling me wasn't true...She had never said that...Mostly it was them trying to out think themselves. Dawn is still a pain in the butt though.

Ooh! I got to play in the mud today. Hehehe.
When I took Aric to work I took the van 'cuz it wasn't too slippery, but by the time I had to pick him up it had rained some more.
So, I took the truck...Hehehe, mud all over the place. Even with 4 wheel drive it was hard to drive in.
Why is no one on...This sucks. No one has been online all day long. Except for David...But he'll like, not talk to me. Or something...I dunno.

Talked to Sandi some...She said that arsenic showed up in my tests...That didn't go over too well.
It's like, gee, what else could show up...I need to see her next week...Yay...::nervous tick starts under eye::

For most of the day I've had this headache...Tension headaches suck...It started at the back of my neck, and it's oozing fwd over and above my eyes.
My stomache is all unhappy about that too.
And it feels like theres a sharp marble sized rock right under my solarplex...And you know what...I've been getting the feeling that I've been complaining way too much lately...I need to stop that I guess...It's not like it's helping anything...

Anyhoo.
Soraidh

I hate mice...
Well, I can deal with mice, just not when they're running loose...Then they freak me out...I've caught mice before. Just ask Nicole. We chased a mouse all over her house once, trying to catch it.
But I had backup...
The cat caught a mouse. She was making noise in Aric's room and Buffy was bugging out so when I went to check, she had it in her mouth...Never think that just because a mouse is in a cat's mouth that the mouse is dead.
So, I tell the cat "good kitty" and lock Buffy in the computer room with me.
Next thing I know, Aric is laughing his hysterical laugh outside the bathroom door telling us we should check this out.
So, I get up, open the door and he's having seizures while pointing at the dresses I had hanging on the towel thingie.
I didn't get it until the cat pops out from behind them.
She had dropped the live mouse and had chased it up my dresses.
Stupid cat.
I think it's kinda funny until she starts ripping into my clothes.
Choad cat.
So, I run in and start shaking the dresses trying to get it out.
It starts screaming which sends both Buffy and the cat into fits.
Finally, it falls out. The cat then tries to chase it up my leg.
By this time Aric has gotten my dad's attention and they're both laughing at me, the mouse, the cat and Buffy.

So, five minutes later the cat loses the mouse.
Fucking cat.
Now we have a traumatized mouse running around...It'll probably become a mass murderer...and will need counseling...::gets image of cat sitting in chair giving counseling to murderous mouse with said mouse holding bloody toothpick...::
Ok, I think I've been talking to David waaaay too much...

Gonna go to bed now.
'night 'night

Local time my ass. That thing annoys me so much.
But anyhoo.
Went with Ed today. He showed me around where he works at the moment. Told me all this stuff about computers and networking.
That was so kickass.
I felt like I was actually doing something.
Mmmm...we got donuts. Mmmm....Krispy Kream...
Where Ed works is all the way down in Basque Farms. I was like, dude.
The people there are nice. Didn't get to meet everyone. He had me download some software and hook up some UPS's while he tried to fix this guy's computer...I guess it's not really broken...but the guys who uses it thinks it's to slow and all it's doing is slightly hesitating with this one program.
Ed told me that if I start working with him seriously that I need to get some certificates. I started to panic.
Eh, but I guess they're not all that difficult to pass...I dunno...At this point...I really want my GED...but....I dunno...I have a feeling I wont get it...for a while...I can only concentrate on one thing at the moment and I want that to be work...Ed says that at the moment he'll be paying me $8 dollars an hour..And once I learn the ropes, it'll be like, 20 hours which we split in half, even though one of us might work over time. Aaand if I get my work done in like, less then 5 hours, I still get paid for the 10 hours. But, if I work overtime....I only get paid the 10.
Sounds good to me though. I mean, hey, $8 bucks an hour. Sweet.
And, once I learn more, he'll give me a raise. Which would put me at $15 dollars an hour. I was all, hot shit! then he said that when he could send stuff home with me or send me out on jobs without him he'd automatically jack it up to $25 for those jobs.
Oh oh! and I don't know, but it sounds like I might get paid like, that day, or the day after I do the job. Or something. Maybe. We haven't worked that out yet.
I think I might enjoy working with computers. Mmm...information for the brain.
And man, on the drive up there, in between us joking around he would tell me all this stuff about networking and how certain progs worked and stuff. And did the same on the way back too.
By the time I got home I had this really bad headache and my mind was going a mile a second...only, I'd lose the train of thought a lot.
Information over load. I know I probably wont remember half of it, but oh well. I'll catch up.

Ok, so, Halloween officially sucks this year.
I'm gonna have fun next year though. So, nyeh.
I wanna see Ghost Ship. Trying to figure out when. Wow, I haven't had to borrow money from my parents in like...a year.
That's cool.

::runs to get warm socks on::
Mmm...the warmth
Now I need something to eat.
Why is no one interesting on....
Ack, I guess I need to go....
Soraidh

Hmm...Awake at 3:30 in the morning...Feel like babbling...So I will

I woke up suddenly from a somewhat peaceful sleep talking to myself. Doesn't happen much...I swear. Used to...but yeah, anyway.
I told myself "Know what, now would be a good time to get online...There might be people on I would like to talk to, and, I can update like I wanted to earlier...but couldn't because of my stupid body..."
Now here I am, feeling like a geek. Go me.

Every year about this time I start thinking about...stuff...
Like, have I done want I wanted to do? Or, have I acted with intelligence and understanding to the situations that were...Nae got the word integrity stuck in my head so I guess I'll use that.
This year I didn't do anything that I was wanting to do. And yet, while I'm not happy with myself for it...I'm satisfied with the stuff I have done. Like, I finally peeled myself away from my family...Always before...We were so focused on us and the problems that were happening we were just one...person. Or something.
Now I'm me. Just me. And though the problems are still there, and more have come up, it's not like the world is gonna end if things start to crumble...Because I have this other world to go to until things get better...
I'm not saying that I'm no longer a part of my family. I love 'em tons, and I would never want to leave that.
But yeah. Just wish it hadn't taken so long...'cuz now I'm behind in all my other crap that I need to get through.
Yay, college...
It's starting to bother me that I don't know what I want to do yet...Everyone is always telling me that I need to figure out what I want to do before I go to college...And it's like...yeah.
I just want to go with the flow on this. I'm going to go to two years of college and then figure it all out. There's a lot I want to learn...I don't like focusing on one thing I guess...like, lately I've been thinking about looking into police work...But the other things that are going through my head or veterinary school, alternative medicine, teaching, crimonolgy, law, maybe even writing...I can see myself doing all those and enjoying it.

::heaves sigh::
Too many things to think about.
Well, I think that's enough babbling about nothing...even though there's so much more...

Went to the movies with Brett. The plan was to go see Lilo and Stitch...but we ended up seeing Spiderman.
Love that movie. I want the DVD. ::grin::
We got something to eat afterwards and talked alot about random stuff.
I really enjoy talking about random stuff. The cool thing about talking with Brett is you never get bored with a subject because you're never on one long enough.

Hmm...guess I better go back to bed...My SoBe bottle is now empty and I'm running low on energy.
'night all

Mmm...sleepy...
Weds.'s meeting I was volenteered to make a whole bunch of markers/flags for the camporee this weekend, so I was doing that all Thurs. Went to bed about 12:30 last night. I hate sewing....Got up at 5:00 this morning to finish the flags before I had to take Aric to meet up with Renee. It was freakin' cold this morning.
After finishing the flags I had like, 20 minutes until I had to leave so I crashed...woke up with 5 minutes to go so I just put a coat and some shoes on and jumped out the door. Everything was almost iced over.
The clouds were uber wicked.
They had all sunk down over the mountains. Looked like they were in a white ocean.
So, took Aric to the ATM, dropped him off at Renees with flags ::twitch:: and then went back home.
On the way back the clouds had moved and there was a heave mist/fog all over the place. Then it looked like God had dropped a glass of milk or something.
I like mornings. Mornings are pretteh...I just don't like being awake mornings.
Got back here at 8:00, and went back to bed.
Woke up at 2:45...
Kinda thought that was weird...Usually, if I sleep late, after 10:00 I'm constantly waking up every hour. Like my brain is telling my body that it should be getting it's lazy ass out of bed.
Not today. No arguements from the peanut gallery. Woo!
Well, that's all I feel like putting down now...
link

I hate it when you're thinking about something and making progress with that train of thought when suddenly something will happen (Like Aric coming in ranting about skanky asses...) and you totally lose what you were thinking about...Can't remember nothin'.
Pisses me off.
::heaves sigh:: And it happens all the time.

Felt like crap today, but what's new. Had to stay home...or die.
Feeling a little better now.
Went the the parade thing in Moriarty yesterday (Sat.) and stayed for the Pinto Bean fiesta. I'm glad I called Brett to see what was going on. Wore myself out even though I was doin' nothing. ::rolls eyes:: I really pushed it when Nicole was here...But I don't regret it.
Damnit, I have to go...Mom is kicking me off and Grandma is on the phone ::gets nervous twitch under eye::

Damn DJ....It wont let me actually log in on this computer....Maybe it's the dell and not DJ....damn dell.
Anyhoo.
Lots of stuff happened!
But, it's like I'm having a mind block...I don't know what to put down.
Maybe I'll start with the bad and then get to the good...that way I wont be in a bad mood when I sign off.
I'm really bummed about Kirby...he's being a shit head.
we saw him maybe....4 times while Nicole was here, and everytime it was only for like 5 minutes. Then, he goes and shoves my head into a door. I was all....son of a bitch...and then stalked off with him going "What'd I do?"
Fucker...Grrr...
Ok, maybe I wont bitch at all. It's making me all gloomy.
Tues we went swing dancing. Had a blast. I wore this kick ass skirt with my black tank. Hehehe...We all looked like hot shit. Nicole got the cool shoes. Now I want some!
I didn't dance very much. I was tired. And this guy stepped all over my feet....So then my feet hurt.
Aric, Julie, Liam, Renee, Nicole, Jessica and Clayton went. Nicole brought her grandfathers hat...which was really cool, so everyone would steal it...Hehe, I think I'll try to look for a hat like that. What I really want is one that's black with red and green plaid pen stripes.
We left at 10:00pm because my head felt like it was about to explode from lack of sleep and food. Then we went to Micky D's...that helped. I hadn't eatten at all on Tues. Then we went and dropped Nicole off...::sniff sniff:: We stood in the street for 15 minutes just getting hugs.
We miss you Nicole!
Liam was really wired. I thought it was funny until my ribs started hurting...Then I couldn't laugh so I ignored him.
Aric actually asked some girls to dance. That was cool.
Renee talked to Eric while we were all dancing.
Hope everything is cool with him. I know she's worried. I think everyone is.
But yeah...
His play was kick ass.
We enjoyed it alot.
we went to see Four Feathers on Mon. with Chrissy, Liam and Logan.
The theater was basically empty, except for some people in the very back.
I was sitting there, minding my own business when Logan, who was sitting beside me, reached over, grabbed my foot, yanked my shoe off and threw it across the theater...So, I got up and kinda looked for it...then came back, took off my other shoe and beat him with it until he went and found my other one.
It was entertaining.
I also noticed that when I'm not with a group (Like Nae, Nicole and Julie) I don't use nearly as much chap stick...I'm more likely to just say screw it because I always forget mine...and live with it.
Went to Road Runner today...I had gotten Aric's schedual all screwed up and so my mom and I would be the only ones there...First time I've gone there without Sandi...and I was having a minor panic attack. And you have to have people to help load the food because you have to get the food, load it all in an hour, and I didn't really know how much we were gonna get..So I was really paranoid. I didn't think Mom and I would be able to do that in that amount of time, so I called Liam. He was really cool. He went with us. I was soo happy. I was about to scream when Aric told me he wasn't going to be there to help.
Turns out we were done with 15 minutes to spare. Then we went by Sandi's to drop off food and get some paper work for my mom...and I crashed. I don't do well with nerves when I'm that tired and ...yeah. So, all I wanted to do was go home...And I still had to unload the food that we kept...In fact, all I have done at the moment is all the frozen stuff...and I need to make room for all the rest...
Ugh. I guess I better go and...do something.
Will post more later.
Poco taco!

Wooo! Nicole is here.
She just finished updating her journal...I felt like I should at least put something up.
Man, she's got this long ass entry. And it was only about Wed thru Sat.
Anyhoo....I can't find anymore quizzes...::sniff sniff::
It's cold.
Can't wait to go to Eric's play. And Brett's birthday party and then then for this weekend. I'm all for hanging out with the group for all of it. That's gonna be so cool.
I don't want Nicole to go home!!! Damnit.
And Kirby's a chucklefuck!!
Oh! And I really want to go ice skating. Woohoo.
Mm...so tired.
And I burnt my tongue on a popcicle. It hurts like hell. It's all red....Ick
I was trying to eat Starbursts...I didn't enjoy them all that much.
Hehehe...Nae licked my rock.
I still find that funny.
Such a cool rock.
I don't want to go pick Aric up from work. Bastard. Needs to learn how to drive....

Well, I'm gonna go now.
Bye!