Hmm...Awake at 3:30 in the morning...Feel like babbling...So I will
I woke up suddenly from a somewhat peaceful sleep talking to myself. Doesn't happen much...I swear. Used to...but yeah, anyway.
I told myself "Know what, now would be a good time to get online...There might be people on I would like to talk to, and, I can update like I wanted to earlier...but couldn't because of my stupid body..."
Now here I am, feeling like a geek. Go me.
Every year about this time I start thinking about...stuff...
Like, have I done want I wanted to do? Or, have I acted with intelligence and understanding to the situations that were...Nae got the word integrity stuck in my head so I guess I'll use that.
This year I didn't do anything that I was wanting to do. And yet, while I'm not happy with myself for it...I'm satisfied with the stuff I have done. Like, I finally peeled myself away from my family...Always before...We were so focused on us and the problems that were happening we were just one...person. Or something.
Now I'm me. Just me. And though the problems are still there, and more have come up, it's not like the world is gonna end if things start to crumble...Because I have this other world to go to until things get better...
I'm not saying that I'm no longer a part of my family. I love 'em tons, and I would never want to leave that.
But yeah. Just wish it hadn't taken so long...'cuz now I'm behind in all my other crap that I need to get through.
Yay, college...
It's starting to bother me that I don't know what I want to do yet...Everyone is always telling me that I need to figure out what I want to do before I go to college...And it's like...yeah.
I just want to go with the flow on this. I'm going to go to two years of college and then figure it all out. There's a lot I want to learn...I don't like focusing on one thing I guess...like, lately I've been thinking about looking into police work...But the other things that are going through my head or veterinary school, alternative medicine, teaching, crimonolgy, law, maybe even writing...I can see myself doing all those and enjoying it.
::heaves sigh::
Too many things to think about.
Well, I think that's enough babbling about nothing...even though there's so much more...
Went to the movies with Brett. The plan was to go see Lilo and Stitch...but we ended up seeing Spiderman.
Love that movie. I want the DVD. ::grin::
We got something to eat afterwards and talked alot about random stuff.
I really enjoy talking about random stuff. The cool thing about talking with Brett is you never get bored with a subject because you're never on one long enough.
Hmm...guess I better go back to bed...My SoBe bottle is now empty and I'm running low on energy.
'night all
I told myself "Know what, now would be a good time to get online...There might be people on I would like to talk to, and, I can update like I wanted to earlier...but couldn't because of my stupid body..."
Now here I am, feeling like a geek. Go me.
Every year about this time I start thinking about...stuff...
Like, have I done want I wanted to do? Or, have I acted with intelligence and understanding to the situations that were...Nae got the word integrity stuck in my head so I guess I'll use that.
This year I didn't do anything that I was wanting to do. And yet, while I'm not happy with myself for it...I'm satisfied with the stuff I have done. Like, I finally peeled myself away from my family...Always before...We were so focused on us and the problems that were happening we were just one...person. Or something.
Now I'm me. Just me. And though the problems are still there, and more have come up, it's not like the world is gonna end if things start to crumble...Because I have this other world to go to until things get better...
I'm not saying that I'm no longer a part of my family. I love 'em tons, and I would never want to leave that.
But yeah. Just wish it hadn't taken so long...'cuz now I'm behind in all my other crap that I need to get through.
Yay, college...
It's starting to bother me that I don't know what I want to do yet...Everyone is always telling me that I need to figure out what I want to do before I go to college...And it's like...yeah.
I just want to go with the flow on this. I'm going to go to two years of college and then figure it all out. There's a lot I want to learn...I don't like focusing on one thing I guess...like, lately I've been thinking about looking into police work...But the other things that are going through my head or veterinary school, alternative medicine, teaching, crimonolgy, law, maybe even writing...I can see myself doing all those and enjoying it.
::heaves sigh::
Too many things to think about.
Well, I think that's enough babbling about nothing...even though there's so much more...
Went to the movies with Brett. The plan was to go see Lilo and Stitch...but we ended up seeing Spiderman.
Love that movie. I want the DVD. ::grin::
We got something to eat afterwards and talked alot about random stuff.
I really enjoy talking about random stuff. The cool thing about talking with Brett is you never get bored with a subject because you're never on one long enough.
Hmm...guess I better go back to bed...My SoBe bottle is now empty and I'm running low on energy.
'night all
posted by Crystal at 3:27 AM
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