Ok, if you don't want to hear about it....skip it

I still feel like screaming.
And I hate being manipulated.
I've been thinking back on what all has happened to me this year and I realized there's been several times were I've been manipulated by two people who I thought were my friends and that I could trust them.
I don't know what to think anymore.
Fucking bastards...

I'm tired and I hurt. But above all else I'm so freakin' tired.

You know that feeling...Like, when you have cotton in your ears and everything is extremely muffled...Everything is far away and you can't touch it, and yet at the same time you're extremely sensitive to the least little thing...And if someone were to touch you, you don't know if you want to run away screaming your heart out or if you'll grab onto them and never want to let go. And hope to God that they don't let go too soon or you'll fly apart.

::heaves sigh::
I want to be able to section off my life...So I don't have to deal with my family life when I'm with my friends...and I don't have to deal with all those problems when I'm with my family.
I wish people would stop yelling at me...and depending on me...And expecting me to answer all their questions...and at the same time...I don't know what I would do if I didn't have some of that. Because some times it's the only way I can not think about my problems.
That sounds so...stupid and disgustingly pathetic.

I think I'm just gonna go see if I can find my rock to crawl under....