Freak O' Nature
So, I had to pump air into my flat tire with a bicycle pump the other day. You know, one of those old fashioned ones that brings to mind Coyote and his TNT in the cartoons? Yeah, that was interesting. I need a car that has actual clearance so that everytime a tire goes flat I don't have to find new and inventive ways to fix it because I can't get the stupid jack under it because there's no room between it and the ground.
Mmm...tomatoe soup and saltine crackers. Gotta love it.
School starts tomorrow. I'm not yet ready becaus I've been busy procrastinating. I need to get a job, and finish this paper work I said I would have finished by this weekend...Hm.
I think my biggest flaw at the moment is that I put EVERYTHING off. I don't know why. I'm also thinking that the reason why I have been so tired and find it so hard to wake up in the mornings is not due to me being physically sick. I always thought that it was very obvious when you're suffering from depression...but it's not always. 'Course it could be that it's obvious to everyone else and you're just in denial. Isn't "denial" a fun word?
I lost weight =D. I so happy. Not a lot, but some. And hopefully with this yoga class thing I signed up for, I'll either lose more from my hips and legs, or I'll actually get muscle tone. Win/win situation...that can't last long.
So, I really really really want to go to VA this summer. Or Spring...actually, I really just want to move there. I need a change of scenery, bad. At the same time I know that I will miss people here...::sigh:: I dunno. Anyway, in order to make the trip, I need to get a job that will pay enough for gas, over flow from mom's finances, food for me and school, and still have enough left over for me to save...6 months. That's all I got. Wow, daunting right there. I think I'm about to have a panic attack again. Fuck all. Mom's therapists don't think I should leave for at least another couple of years. So now it feels like I'm chained here and that's not helping matters. Whoop-di-freakin'-do.
I miss Nicole.
And I really want to see Joey.
Aric just got back. Now I need to go argue. Yay
Mmm...tomatoe soup and saltine crackers. Gotta love it.
School starts tomorrow. I'm not yet ready becaus I've been busy procrastinating. I need to get a job, and finish this paper work I said I would have finished by this weekend...Hm.
I think my biggest flaw at the moment is that I put EVERYTHING off. I don't know why. I'm also thinking that the reason why I have been so tired and find it so hard to wake up in the mornings is not due to me being physically sick. I always thought that it was very obvious when you're suffering from depression...but it's not always. 'Course it could be that it's obvious to everyone else and you're just in denial. Isn't "denial" a fun word?
I lost weight =D. I so happy. Not a lot, but some. And hopefully with this yoga class thing I signed up for, I'll either lose more from my hips and legs, or I'll actually get muscle tone. Win/win situation...that can't last long.
So, I really really really want to go to VA this summer. Or Spring...actually, I really just want to move there. I need a change of scenery, bad. At the same time I know that I will miss people here...::sigh:: I dunno. Anyway, in order to make the trip, I need to get a job that will pay enough for gas, over flow from mom's finances, food for me and school, and still have enough left over for me to save...6 months. That's all I got. Wow, daunting right there. I think I'm about to have a panic attack again. Fuck all. Mom's therapists don't think I should leave for at least another couple of years. So now it feels like I'm chained here and that's not helping matters. Whoop-di-freakin'-do.
I miss Nicole.
And I really want to see Joey.
Aric just got back. Now I need to go argue. Yay
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